I Am Not Afraid of Who I Am

I ... am bisexual. And I’m still trying to come to terms that it’s okay. I grew up with an understanding mom that accepts me the way I am even if I didn’t know who that is. But now I’m starting to figure it out. I didn’t want to post anything because it’s no ones business, but I’m doing this because it might encourage others to speak up and stop hiding from who they are. 

I have only have had romantic relationships with males and mainly had sexual ones with females and that’s okay. 

I thought something was wrong with me because I was sexually attracted to both sexes and only romantically attracted to one. I thought that was bad and I didn’t know how to explain to myself that it was okay to be with either males or females. I thought I was a fake lesbian because I liked guys, and I thought I was just a straight girl who liked kissing girls for the rush that it was wrong to do because I was a Christian. 

I was a Christian. And I think that limited me. It limited me and made me feel like I was bad and wrong for liking girls too. Learning in church that being gay is bad made me scared to even look at girls a certain way sometimes. But not anymore, I like guys and I also like girls. Who knows if I’ll ever fall in love with a girl, I have no idea. Just the fact that I can accept myself either way has given me strength to allow myself to be curious about it. 

I’m posting this on Facebook rather than Instagram where most of my friends are because I want my family to know. I want my family to see that growing up Christian made me feel like I was never going to be accepted by anyone except my mom and maybe a couple other relatives. I want you guys to know that I’m still the same little girl that I was before, but at the same time I’m not. I am now not as scared of what you guys will think or rather what anyone will think. 

Love is love and I’m glad that I have the ability to say this out loud and not care if there are any harsh comments because this is who I am and I’m proud of that. I have tons of other things to figure out in my life, but no longer is this one of the things I’m afraid to talk about.